I wonder what am i thinking

Running season has started. As I get older,I having problems waking up earlier. So far,I've been running at night.
My route is pretty scenic. Water,lights and the wind.
Always see couples strolling by the river,having quiet moments together.
Standing at the railings watching the view. I wonder what they talk,but I'm sure they enjoy the quiet night together juz staring at the night scene.

Sometimes I wonder are relationships meant to make everyone happy. I do see people get hurt deep in their hearts in relationships. Even I get it as well.
I'm not sure how well I can take such pain,but I know I have friends and my parents to be there for me.

I'm not sure if the other party considered my feelings or do or say things out of recklessness. But I've learnt to take it on my side and not blow things up any further.If you are reading this, I hope we can move this obstacle and make the journey smoother.

C：你這個人情緒控制力不足，一般經不起分手這樣的打擊，因此會歇斯底里的想要挽回。